how could i?
they have been with me all my life and i just abbandoned them
they have been with me longer than my true love
they have stood by me and i am just trashing them
they are my friends
and i hurt them
they would never judge me
they would never tease me
they trusted me and i left them to die
why would i do that
i am a monster
why?

why are you talking like that they have done nothing but bring you
grief and ailments
they weigh down your lungs and you say you trust them?
they are the monsters and they are sucking you in with their chemicals
they are not your friend they are using you to indulge in their
selfish need to destroy
they are killing you and you feel like you are being nasty?
they have entranced you to an unhealthy point
stop
stop now before they bury you completely in tar and despair

you
you hate them you are trying to trick me into killing my oldest
friends
you want them to suffer
you know they are kinder than you and you dont want the competition
you foul creature
how could you do this to me
i thought i loved you but i now know where my loyalties lie

no
no please i love you i am trying to save you
don't hate me for your own stupidity
i love you more than anything

liar
traitor
you don't care
you are using me

no i swear

just stop it
stop lying
i hate you
i love them

you leave me no choice
you have no idea how much this hurts my heart

ha
you think i care you filthy liar

if you love them i have to do it

ha

fine